Loving can hurts sometimes


When you feel that the ‘ending' is coming, when you try to fight against , when you don't know what to do, what to feel, what to say, when you just saty quiet, hurting, feeling this ending coming.

But you don't want this, you fought until today to just give up and let it go, you have too much love inside you, and sometimes you don't know how to show it, and you think that words can show , but words it's just words, you have to show with actions, and sometimes you don't know how to act, and you do everything wrong, you know that you are acting wrong, but you don't know how to stop it.

You feel like you're losing what is the most important thing in your life, you want to change this, but it's not just about you, you also know how much him loves you, and how he would do everything for you, to see you happy, because it's just what matters. You know how much love have in between each other, but you know that's just love it's not the most important thing.
It's 04:55am, and I'm here writing, i've tryied to sleep, but i couldn't, I'm still here awake, thinking about us, remembering moments that i'll remeber forever, moments that we had, and we loved each other more than anything in the world, remembering our travels, remebering you smiling at me, remembering us. And trying to think some way to set things right, but how can I set things right if i even don't know how we got here. Life just brought us here, It is logical that life did not do it for itself, our attitudes, thoughts and feelings brought us here, and now i have to think about everything, every day, every act that i've made to bring us here. I know you don't want to give up, as I. But I know that if anything bad happens at this point it was already, so i keep thinking, i keep awake, i keep hurting, i keep wishing, praying for us. Because our love is so beautiful and so real that cannot end. Loving can hurt ,loving can hurt sometimes but it's the only thing that I know and when it gets hard you know it can get hard sometimes , It is the only thing that makes us feel alive. Loving can heal, loving can mend your soul and it's the only thing that I know ,I swear it will get easier, remember that with every piece of you and it's the only thing we take with us when we die.

When I think back, the things that threw us off track, we handled like a heart attack, Cause we didn't see the light.
We both know our own limitations and that's why we're strong.
From this moment forget what we were scared of say we're never giving up.
Say you'll always try to be my helping hand.
Try to be the one who understands when things don't go as you plan
But we're still worth it all.

Remember the day all is touched in the rain fireworks in my veins into my heart.
Remember the night's dancing under the sky I got lost in the moonlight. Found in your dark eyes.
I wanna fall in love again but this time with no regrets, I wanna give it all again but this time with no secrets.
I don't want just anyone. Not anyone new, I wanna fall in love again with you.
Can we forget all the lies that we've laid.
Take us so far away from the truth, can we erase all the tears and regrets fear hidden in the pain.
The shadow of yesterday.
We can take a blank white page and fill it with the dreams we made and let this goes slowly fade away. Cause all of me loves all of you, love your curves and all your edges, all your perfect imperfections.
Give your all to me, I'll give my all to you, you're my end and my beginning even when I lose I'm winning Cause I give you all of me.


Kaka Padilha